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Make Positive You Die Screaming
By Zee CarlstromFlatiron Books: 224 pages, $27If you purchase books linked on our website, The Occasions might earn a fee from Bookshop.org, whose charges assist unbiased bookstores.
Say what you’ll about American exceptionalism, however one factor we actually are distinctive at is mendacity. Some lies are small, like how we politely inform one another that we’re advantageous once we’re not. Some are a lot larger, and are perpetuated by our president and his cronies. That is, partly, why the unnamed narrator of Zee Carlstrom’s debut novel, “Make Sure You Die Screaming,” has taken a vow of radical honesty. It’s been tougher than they anticipated: “What the truth will actually do is tank your career, eradicate your remaining interpersonal relationships, bash your skull in with a baseball bat, and then set you free.”
“Make Sure You Die Screaming” follows its nonbinary narrator over the course of some hazy, drunken, rage-filled days as they drive from Chicago to a small city in Arkansas, accompanied by their good friend of two weeks, self-proclaimed “garbage goth” Yivi. Ostensibly, the narrator goes to Arkansas as a result of their mother has requested them to come back and assist her discover their father, who has disappeared once more. However their journey South is simply as a lot one in all deliberate self-destruction, an epic flame-out that’s clearly meant to climax as soon as they arrive at their mother and father’ house — the prodigal baby’s disastrous return.
Readers ought to all the time be suspicious of a narrator who insists they’re telling the reality, however I forgot this cardinal rule early within the novel, too distracted by the narrator’s different large declare: that they’re nothing like their lacking father. “We do share a few qualities, obviously,” they admit. “But natural stuff — DNA or whatever — that’s where our similarities end. I have made damn sure of that.” But the e-book bubbles over with the narrator’s rage, which their father had in spades; they freely admit to being indignant about quite a lot of issues, together with “the wars, the courts, the fascists, the economy.” Actually, although, the narrator is indignant as a result of they’re grieving the loss of life of their greatest good friend and artistic companion, they’ve lastly gotten up the braveness to go away their long-term, in all probability abusive boyfriend, they usually’re lastly determining that they haven’t been advantageous in a really very long time.
It’s unclear precisely how a lot time passes through the novel — we all know it’s June when it begins and July 4th when it ends — and it’s simply as laborious for the narrator to maintain monitor of; they spend the overwhelming majority of the novel ingesting, drunk and/or hungover. The excessive jinks they rise up to with Yivi are largely what you’d count on from a lately fired white millennial with a aptitude for drama and nihilistic tendencies: They drink and drive, shoplift from fuel stations, finagle a free Motel 6 room, lose their garments someplace alongside the best way and, in fact, spend loads of time bickering.
It’s enjoyable to learn, for certain, however there’s additionally a yawning pit of despair sitting beneath the narrator’s alternating tones of glib humor and seething rage. Yivi, who repeatedly asks the narrator to cease yelling at her, to cease treating her so poorly, is a kind of stand-in for the reader — she clearly enjoys the narrator, who’s certainly gratifying, however she’s additionally keenly conscious that they’re on their technique to hitting backside and would favor to not be yanked down there as effectively.
The narrator’s historical past is slowly revealed over the course of the drive to Arkansas and what follows their arrival at their mom’s house. However that historical past is continually being readjusted and reconfigured relying on the narrator’s way of thinking and the totally different variations they’re confronted with after they bump up towards different folks’s recollections and narratives. Early within the e-book, as an example, the narrator confesses to being wished for homicide; not lengthy after, they inform us they’ve murdered their greatest good friend, Jenny; by the tip of the novel, although, the story has modified. Has the narrator been mendacity to us? Not precisely. Principally, they’re mendacity to themself, satisfied of no matter they really feel and suppose within the second.
“I’m beginning to think I was put here to tell a bigger truth. Our truth,” they narrate in one in all their extra grandiose moments. “To carve away the rotten bits of my festering mind with Occam’s razor of the better angels of my greater nature. And while I am 100 percent positive that last thought did not make any f—— sense, it certainly felt true when I thought it, and that matters.” Certainly — truthiness, as of late, far too usually trumps the precise reality.
“Make Sure You Die Screaming” is, on the floor, ideologically coherent, its narrator very clearly on the left and livid at their mother and father’ descent into right-wing conspiracy theories and grievance politics. However over the course of the novel, the narrator’s certainty wavers, they usually start to acknowledge that, essentially, they’re indignant about all the identical issues their dad is. The distinction is essentially who they’ve every chosen accountable. Carlstrom has written a e-book that feels extremely of the second, twining collectively anger and glee, hope and despair, alienation and neighborhood.
Masad, a books and tradition critic, is the writer of the novel “All My Mother’s Lovers” and the forthcoming novel “Beings.”
